|there's something especially peaceful about taking the time|
to brew yourself a cup of French pressed coffee
(I feel like you should know that just as I finished writing that last sentence, Junia woke up and started crying for me. So I went and calmed her down and got her back to sleep - thankfully!)
So, about a half hour ago I tidied up the house, put some water in the kettle to boil up, and sat down to write this blog post. Nearly every single day I think of something new to write here. I think of experiences I have and how they would make such interesting stories, or lessons, or just relate-able things to tell about. And just about every single day, I can't muster the time or energy to sit and actually get them out here. But today I told myself that that's what I wanted to do, so it became important to me to make sure it got done. Then Junia woke. And I thought all my plans were out the window. Again. And then, lo and behold, she fell back to sleep! And now here I am again. I feel like I'm floundering, because as usual, when I start to write I have no idea where to start or even exactly what I want to say. Soooo...as usual again, I'll just start writing and see what comes. Usually it ends up being okay.
|my healing stones/crystals after charging under the sun|
I remember telling Scott "I just feel like I could do it if I was able to actually watch someone do it first, that way I have something to go off of." And Scott said "What are you going to learn about watching someone sit here like this for 20 minutes?" as he closed his eyes and sat still for a minute. "I guess nothing." I replied. "Right," he said. "You aren't meditating because you don't really want it. You're looking for excuses not to."
That right there really got me. He was right. And I was procrastinating.
So I decided to quit wallowing and get moving. I also decided that I wanted to make a specific space to practice meditating everyday, so I became proactive with that and created one.
|a glimpse into my meditation altar|
Once I took the time to create a space that I loved to be in, it was time to start meditating. I downloaded a really handy timer app on my phone, and I set it for 4 minutes and 15 seconds. The 15 seconds are to give me time to get in a comfortable position, grab my stones, and make sure I'm ready. And then the 4 minutes I spend meditating. Sometimes I have an active conversation with God. But most times recently I've been meditating on the Jesus prayer. For some reason that is what keeps me most focused and concentrated. I have no complaints. I enjoy this particular prayer very much, and since it works so well for me, I'm planning to keep using it as my go-to.
My problem with daily meditation was that I really thought I didn't know how to do it. And before that, I thought that meditation was bad. I thought it was opening up your mind to let demons come in and take over. (I was sooo misinformed!) Once I took the time to start learning about meditation and talking to people who actively meditate, I realized that I didn't know much at all about it. So my first step was to learn more. So I talked to more people. I followed people on Instagram. I read articles. I got books.
And I've seen incredible results even after only a couple days. I began to control my emotions better. I was more present. I discovered that I was capable of walking away from a stressful situation without getting upset about it. I began responding to people with kindness instead of spur-of-the-moment cockiness. I learned that I'm able to stop myself from sinking into a bad attitude.
When I realized that these were HUGE changes happening in my life, my very own life! I became even more convinced that this daily meditation was something I needed to make space for everyday. As a wife and busy mom of two beautiful toddlers, taking time for myself is a challenge. And for everyone this will be different. What I've found works best for me right now is taking time to meditate right after my shower in the morning. Chuck is still home and watching the kids, and since it's only 4 minutes, it's not a huge time commitment. (I'm planning on adding to that time in 1 minute increments, by the way.) I sneak from the bathroom to the bedroom (so the kids don't hear me, lol!) and after I get dressed and get organized, I meditate. I have 4 quiet, blissful moments of meditation.
|my favorite candle to light during meditation|
Chuck has even mentioned to me that he has noticed me trying really hard to respond the right way in certain situations. That meant the world to me. The fact that I'm not only enriching my own life, but the lives of my husband and children as well!! Why on earth wouldn't I meditate?!
Another thing I've been learning about lately are the many different types of prayer that there are. I had no idea! Chuck sent me these videos recently, and I really enjoyed them. They are all about listening prayer.
The latest type of prayer I've been learning about is imaginative prayer. It's an incredibly beautiful way to pray that I'm excited to start practicing. I don't have a good article to link to on this topic, but I was reading about it in the Catholic prayer book that a friend let me borrow. Also, Greg Boyd has an amazing book that we are reading right now Seeing is Believing on this same topic.
|my healing stones/crystals|
Do you meditate? What is your story? I'd love to hear what types of things inspire you, what keeps you going, and any specifics that you're found helpful throughout your journey. Meditation, I'm learning, is such a beautiful personal thing that has the power to transform lives. It's really exciting and something I am especially thankful for right now.
How about different types of prayer? Have you ever considered that there are more ways than one to pray? I'd love to hear your thoughts!